Showing posts with label angst. Show all posts
Showing posts with label angst. Show all posts

Friday, October 23, 2009

The Fool

Basic Tarot Symbols

The fool in colorful motley clothes, pack tied to a staff, a small dog, a cliff.

Basic Tarot Story

With all his worldly possessions in one small pack, the Fool travels he knows not where. So filled with visions and daydreams is he, that he doesn't see the cliff he is likely to fall over. At his heel, a small dog harries him (or tries to warn him of a possible mis-step).

Basic Tarot Meaning

At #0, the Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he needs to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasizing and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

Thirteen's Observations

In the Tarot, cards like The Magician or The Hermit can often stand for the Querent or for someone in the Querent's life. The Fool, however, almost always stands for the Querent alone, no one else. In standing for the Querent, the Fool represents a time of newness, a time when life has been "re-started" as it were. The person feels that they are back at zero, whether that be in romantic affairs, or career, at their job or intellectual pursuits. Far from being sad or frustrating, the Querent feels remarkably *free*, light hearted and refreshed, as if being given a second chance. They feel young and energized.

In addition, they likely have no idea where they're going or what they're going to do. But that doesn't matter. For the Fool, the most important thing is to just go out and enjoy the world. To see what there is to see and delight in all of it.

Unfortunately, in this childlike state the person is likely to be overly optimistic or naive. A Fool can be a Fool. This is the card likely to turn up when a Querent is thinking of investing his money in a new, "sure fire" business. Or when the Querent is sure that it's "love this time!" Like the Fool, they're so busy daydreaming of what might be that they're ignoring what is. They're about to fall right off a cliff. It's time for them to listen to that watchful little dog, which might be a concerned friend, a wise tarot reader, or just their instincts.

As a card, the Fool ultimately stands for a new start. When it turns up the Querent might be about to make a move, not just to a new home, but new job, new life. There's more than just change, renewal, and a brand new beginning in the Fool, there's also movement, a fresh, exciting new time.

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Thursday, October 08, 2009

Simpatiya Para Sa 'Yo


Kakatapos lang ng bagyong Ondoy at rumaragasa pa ang bagyong Pepeng, daan-daan ang mga namatay at nawawala, at daang-libo ang nagsisiksikan sa mga evacuation center. Patuloy sa pagtaas ang presyo ng mga bilihin dahil na rin sa pananamantala ng ilang negosyante. Buong bansa ang inilagay ni Gloria sa state-of-calamity, at maraming nagdududa kung hindi ba n'ya ito gagamitin para mapabilis ang pagnanakaw niya sa kaban ng bayan. Patuloy ang korupsyon, ang paghihirap, ang pang-aabuso...

...At ngayon ka pa talaga sumabay na humingi ng simpatiya dahil hindi mo alam kung ano ang gagawin mo sa buhay mo, kung patuloy kang mag-aaral, o kung magta-trabaho ka na, at kung anong klaseng trabaho, pagkatapos mong maka-graduate ng college?

Umamin ka-- adik ka 'no?

Valid ang takot mo, at hindi pwedeng i-dismiss 'yun nang ganu'n-gano'n na lang. At sa maniwala ka't sa hindi, karamihan-- kundi man lahat-- ay dumaraan d'yan. Pero 'wag mong isiping ikaw ang pinakakawawang nilalang sa mundo dahil hirap na hirap ka na dahil hindi mo alam kung ano ang meaning ng life o kung ano ang gusto mong gawin. 'Wag mo ring isiping walang nakakaintindi sa 'yo. 'Yung mga taong inaakusahan mong hindi nakakaintindi sa 'yo, kaya nilang magsulat ng buong libro tungkol sa 'yo.

Pero lawakan mo naman sana, kahit konti man lang, ang pananaw mo sa buhay. Tigilan mo muna ang pagtingin sa sarili mo at sa sarili mo lang. Ilagay mo ang sarili mo sa mundo, sa panahon ngayon, bilang isang mamamayan ng isang third world na bansa.

Matakot ka kung ano ang bukas na naghihintay sa 'yo. Mag-alala ka kung makakasabay ka ba sa mabilis na agos ng buhay. Pero tumingin ka rin sa paligid mo. Ilagay mo ang sarili mo sa tamang konteksto. At tigilan mo na ang kase-self pity at kaiisip na *Gaaahd! Nobody understands me! Life is useless and meaningless and everyone who thinks otherwise is stupid I'm the only one who knows the truth and I'm the protagonist and everybody else is just a prop and extra in this movie set I call life!*

Shut up ka muna kahit ngayon lang. Next week pagkatapos ng mga bagyo, kung gusto mong mag-inarte ulit at patuloy na humingi ng simpatiya, bahala ka. 'Wag lang muna ngayon. Dahil nakakairita ka.
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Sunday, August 30, 2009

I'm Not Your Baby... Puh-leez!

I'm Not Your Baby
Performed by U2 and Sinéad O'Connor
Music by U2 / Lyrics by Bono
From Wim Wenders' The End of Violence OST


It's a beautiful day today
Everything is going my way
Even the words doing what I say
Oh babe, got to get away

To be impossible
Isn't that difficult
In the city you're invisible
When you come from a small town

Everything is alright
Everything is alright
I'm not your baby please

A tourist in a traffic jam
Babysham handycam
I'm not your mother, you're not my man
I'm not your baby

Don't treat me like I'm a trick
I won't treat you like you're a prick
Don't need no doctor, I'm not ill
I'm not your baby

Everything is alright
Everything is alright
I'm not your baby please

Cut out the poetry
Let's hit the main artery
No time for a tourniquet
Let the colours all run out on me

You brought me all kinds of goods
Now my heart is so full up it hurts
It's heavy as a shopping bag
It's full of things I should give back

Everything is alright
Everything is alright
I'm not your baby please

I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby

Don't want you to cover me
Smother me or mother me
I like to feel this incomplete
I'm not your baby


Everything is alright
Everything is alright
I'm not your baby please

Bono [while Sinéad sings, *Feels so good, feels so good*]:
Feel not dizzie just busy
Didn't drink nothing fizzy
No pills to feel easy
Don't know what got in to me
Daylight is a kinda robbery
The night is your geography
So you're not white, you're pink and rosy
You could be right but you're way above me
Me I'm in recovery a star of pornography
I'm a tourist there's a lot to see
You don't like the photographs of me
So you've got a lot to say
You don't sleep around but sometimes you stray
You don't believe often times you pray
For something
What is it babe?

Don't treat me like I'm a trick
Won't treat you like you're a prick
Don't need no doctor, I'm not sick
I'm not your baby


Everything is alright
Everything is alright
I'm not your baby please

I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby
I'm not your baby

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