These R The Thoughts

One of my most favorite albums of all time. Walang itatapon. Especially this cut.

This has been playing nonstop in my head these past several weeks. I think I know why. Actually, this song's in auto-mode every time I'm in the same situation.

I thought I was intelligent, but why some people do some things is beyond me--

I don't understand why some people say one thing and do another.

Or, why they pretend to be somebody else.
Or, why they talk to you and smile at you, and say terrible things behind your back.
Or, why they keep talking about themselves even when, obviously, nobody's interested.
Or, why they can't just be straightforward, honest and transparent.
Or, why they don't want to own up to any of their decisions.

Kaka-badtrip.

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These R The Thoughts
Alanis Morissette
MTV Unplugged

These are the thoughts that go through my head
In my backyard on a sunday afternoon
When I have the house to myself and Im not
Expending all that energy on fighting with my boyfriend

Is he the one that I will marry?
Why is it so hard to be objective about myself?
Why do I feel cellularly alone?
Am I supposed to live in this crazy city?
Can blindly continued fear induced regurgitated life-denying
Tradition be overcome?

Where does the money go that I send to those in need?
If we have so much why do some people have nothing still?
Why do I feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning?
Why do you say you are spiritual
Yet you treat people like shit?

How can you say you're close to god
And yet you talk behind my back as though I am not
A part of you? why do I say Im fine when its
Obvious Im not? whys it so hard to tell you what I want?
Why cant you just read my mind?

Why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen?
Why do I care whether you like me or not?
Why is it so hard for me to be angry?
Why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck
And not the other way around?

Will I ever move back to canada?
Can I be with a lover with whom I am a student and a master?
Why am I encouraged to shut my mouth when it gets too close to home?
Why cannot I live in the moment?
Click any of the pix, or the title of the song to listen to it.
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